How much does He love us?
Enough to die,
To fight for us
To take the fall
But most all, he gave us freedom
Freedom to turn our lives around
Freedom to fall and run into walls
Freedom to make mistakes, to learn
He gave us the freedom to choose.
Can you imagine someone saying, "I let my innocent son die tragically after being tortured for you, but you don't have to love me?"
Of course we can't.
Of course we take that for granted.
When we as Christians, or wanna be Christians run into trouble from our past, we can only hope and pray that those who are immediately impacted will see past our sin and see who we are trying to be.
We can only speak our sorrow, ask for forgiveness, and hand the situation over to God to handle.
Unfortunately sometimes as Christians we have to back off and let God do His thing. It is never fun knowing we aren't the superheroes we lead ourselves to believe we are.
I can only imagine Jesus being ridiculed in his final hours, thinking, "I don't wanna be the one to say goodbye, but I will. 'Cause in the future, you're gonna come back around."
It's hard to see people turn their backs on you, but just imagine the pain God felt watching his son. Actually, he couldn't bear the sight, the ultimate sacrifice.
Sometimes the only way to really know God's strength is to let go of what holds you back from seeking out.
Maybe it's losing someone you've cared about for a long time. Maybe it's losing a lot of people you thought had your best interest at heart.
We may be saying, "I don't wanna be the first to let it go." But we need to teach our hearts to say, "But I know, if you, my God, have the last hands that I want to hold. Then I know I've got to let them go."
It is one of the hardest things I've had to do. I've had nights where I cried and ached for people, where just one more of anything would cure all my wrongs. It's a really weak and humbling place to be.
But my promise is to do my best to wash away everything, each and every day until God comes home to collect me.