Growing up (2006)

If there's one thing I've learned over the years is that no matter how many books you read, friends you have, or lesons you've learned, growing up is hard. These past two years it has become painstakingly obvious to me that if I'm going to make it anywhere in this world, I have to give it to God first and then do as I'm told from there on.

For the most part, I'm really good about following the rules, not giving my parents or anyone else any grief. "Drama's for your mama".. that could probably be my motto if I had to choose one. (Or maybe "Modest is hottest", I really like that one too. ) But my vice is relationships. I have dated and came across some real toads in my time. I also know several frogs. Though I'm not dating one at this time, I am taking it very slow and with extreme caution because I want to make it right. I'm ready to be princess, but I'm willing to wait for it to make sure it's the real deal.

So I'm trying to live it up, I'm going to hang out and act my age for the first time in a long time. That means I need some help! I'm ready for prom, and I'm scared of graduation. I miss Kindergarten and tap dancing on top of the table for show and tell. I remember playing outside with the neighbor boys in my tutu and hot feather earings. I had a pink barbie convertible that I drove all the boys around in when I was younger, I was the prima diva! I'm ready for all of this again, sober sally saturdays (no alcohol get togethers), something on fridays.. I'm free everyday but Sunday, and that's when I focus on my relationships with God, my family and Andy. We're not dating right now, but I have a super close and loving bond with this young man and he is my best buddy.

I am moving this summer to Kentucky to grow more and learn about myself in a more independent fashion. Working full time and possibly having my own apartment depending on the hourly wages and my parents freak out rate. Right now I am working on proving to them how responsible I am in taking care of myself so they believe in me more when I leave this summer. I will be back in the fall for SIC and if all goes well and I get my own place in Kentucky, then I plan on getting another apartment in Marion in the fall and making my commute to SIC 3 days a week so I save gas and working on the other days.

So that's what has been happening in my life since my last blog. Sorry it took me so long, my internet has been acting crazy and we can't get on myspace at school. If anyone wants to hang out just message me. Or if you want to offer me some encouragement that would be super greatly appreciated!

Love & God Bless!

Kayla